Na pragu poletja.

Za mano je eden težjih tednov v zadnjih letih. In ena najtežjih odločitev. Sem naredila prav - upam vsaj, da se bo tudi tokrat skladalo to, česar si želim, s tistim, kar se pač mora zgoditi. Res upam.

Do takrat pa naj bo malo poletje. Brezskrbno, bosih nog. Z lasmi, plapolajočimi v vetru, in metuljčki v trebuhu. Teh že (pre)dolgo ni bilo. Malo, vsaj malo..

That`s how it is in April..

Spring in me.

Danes sem se ustavila in pogledala nazaj na zadnjih nekaj mesecev. Je bilo nekaj težkih dni, priznam, ampak, ko potegnem črto, ugotovim, da se nimam zaradi česar pritoževati.

It`s all good at the end of the day, they say. And it obviously really is.

Čas, da ustvarim nove spomine. Čas za te krasne, pomladne dni. Čas, da zacvetim(o).

But maybe I`ll be okay, Ma`..

Look what they've done to my song, Ma`..
Look what they've done to my song.
Well, it's the only thing I could do half right
And it's turning out all wrong, Ma`.
Look what they've done to my song..
Look what they've done to my brain, Ma`.
Yeah, they picked it like a chicken bone
And they think I'm half insane, Ma`.
Look what they've done to my brain..
Wish I could find a book to live in..
Wish I could find a good book,
`cause if I could find a real good book
I'd never have to come out and look at
Look what they've done to my song.
And if people are buying tears
We'll be rich someday, Ma`..
Look what they've done to my brain.
But maybe I'll be alright, Ma`.
Yeah maybe I'll be okay,
`cause if the people are buying tears
then we'll be rich someday, Ma`,
Look what they've done to my soul, Ma`!
Look what they've done to my soul..
Yeah, they tied it in a plastic bag
and they shook me upside down, Ma`..
Look what they've done to my song..

 

Utrujena sem. Tako hudičevo utrujena od vsega.

Od vseh. 

..Look what they`ve done 

to my soul, Ma`..

24.

"Twenty four is so clearly the hot button age right now. Got some change in your pockets and some stamps in your passport. And, according to Girls, you’re probably having a lot of weird sex and wearing unflattering clothing."

On turning 24.

Če bo res tako, se ne bom pritoževala. Sploh. :)

cincuenta y tres.

Todo sobre mi madre me vsakič znova uniči, četudi ujamem le zadnjih 20 minut. Ay, Almodóvar..

"Las mujeres hacemos cualquier cosa con tal de no estar solas."

Godot II. ali Vse je dobro.

Še vedno nič od nikoder - od obeh stvari, ki mi v preteklih tednih nista dali spati. Vendar ne čakam več. Vem, da ne ena ne druga ne bosta prišli. Ampak tudi prav. Sem velika deklica, zato sem dvignila glavo in (priznam) požrla cmok, ki se mi je nabiral v grlu, ter začela iskati nove možnosti.

Ker so, tam nekje. In zaslužim si jih.
..Pa tudi one mene, če smem biti malce samoljubna.